hello ladies.....
I fell in love with a girl almost 22 years back and i am sure she also fell for me.It continued for about two years unexpressed/untold as i was not nor am i now courageous enough to tell her and as such " i love you" is still unsaid even after 22 years.Well due to some family issues and all that we got married to different people and both of us have kids.After the marriage she used to call me occasionally once or twice a month but we never spoke about love or expressed our love to eachother till date.We didnt lose contact though it was rare and sometimes we met face to face in all these years.After eight years of marriage her husband started troubling her over a property issue which was gifted to her by her father.Her husband wanted her to transfer it to his name which she obviously refused and it all ended up in a clash.To cut short ,she is now living alone from last couple of months and i am also living alone in the same city just at a distance of five kilometers.I also had some clashes with my wife during the course of last ten years on some domestic problems (not this issue though she has some sense of it) and it also ended up in my living separate though not divorce.We are both now in our forties and both of us have children( her children are with her and mine are with my wife) as i said before and both of us live in same city.
Obviously our current living situations have added fuel to fire and now we meet at her place almost twice or thrice in a week . We also talk on phone almost daily as both of us keep on creating unnecessary reasons for this and i keep on helping her in solving day to day problems whatever way i can. In spite of all this we have never been able to express our love for each other.I dont see if there is any future for our relation but i have a deep desire to tell her those three magical words.I dont want to die without telling her all that is stored in my heart from last 22 years.I have wept and i still continue to weep during lonely sad nights and sometimes i cry loud.This is not that she doesnt love me,she does.I can read in her eyes feelings for me but she has reservations and social threat as i understand it.She keeps on gazing me for long durations ,sometimes straight into my eyes and sometimes when i am busy in talking to other people.she does make up and change her dress when she knows i will be visting her.I can see her face glowing as soon as she looks at me.Mostly she sits in my opposite direction so as to have a constant gaze at me.
Now i need advice how to break this 22 year old barrier between us in order to express my love feelings to her and how to say those three magical words.Perhaps that has become only aim in my life........thank you for reading me ...i know ladies have their perespective which men can never reach at......I also know a woman's guess is as good as accuracy of man.
So ladies kindly tell me what could be in her heart. Does she want me to express my feelings for her? or she wants it as it is? As i said we discuss many day to day issues freely and we also discuss our problems with our marriage partners at ease and we share all secrets to each other and she knows that i can go to any extent for her well being...............waiting for your responses....thanks again