Hi Everybody!
I need help and advice on what to do...
I have been almost 2 years with my boyfriend and we are very in love, we are planning on getting engaged and married.
Due to work, we have a distance relationship for about 6 months.
My problem is:
Now that we are far from each other, I am starting to think a loot and I remember something that I did at the very beginning of our relationship and I feel very guilty...
We were dating for about 3 weeks, and I had just moved to los angeles from a foreign country, I did not know how dating worked in the us at that time, and my coworkers told me that at the begining, relationship was not exclusive in LA!! I thought it was weird but since they were from there, I believed. So I was freaking out a little bit, thinking that my boyfriend might be seing other people...
So 1 night I went out to the club with some friends (3 weeks after we met with my boyfriend) and I was a little drunk.
One of my girlfriend who was completely drunk wanted to go to the VIP section next to the DJ of a famous club in hollywood, I did not really care, but she wanted to partay like crazy and kinda "forced"me to go with her. There was a "bodyguard" much older than me and not good looking at all, keeping the VIP section, she talk to him in his hear and told me it's ok we can go! I said fine.. not really enthusiatic.. and I did not even get the chance to realize what happened she kissed that bodyguard and he let her in and she pulled me to do the same. It was really a quick kiss that disgusted me and It happen so fast. I did not even want to do that or go in that VIP section.
I was just being stupid and wanted to make my friend happy. Now all that story came back to my memories and I am feeling so guilty.
I dont know if that count as cheating or not, if I should tell my boyfriend.
I did not want to do that but I did it without thinking to follow her, and then I wanted to vomit right away. I have never done things like that before and I feel disgusted about myself.
Please I need help, I don't know what to do..
Thank you,
Milou