I have been with her for a year now. It started off as friends with benefits, but ended up in a relationship. I was never in love with her, it was always her that was more into me. We began the relationship because we thought there was more to it than just being "friends with benefits" as we spent more or less every day together.
The reason I'm writing this post is that I'm confused whether I should end the relationship or not. She is a GREAT girl, attractive, mature, fun, and we also have several things in common. I love her very deeply. The relationship is currently long distance, and if I don't hear, or receive a text from her every day I can't stop thinking about her. I cannot imagine her with anyone else - the thought is heart braking. But I am stuck on the fact that I have never been in love with her in the first place. It has always been her putting more effort into the relationship. I broke up with her twice before, but we got back together after a couple of days. Additionally, I have only been in one relationship before (I'm 25 years old) which was similar to this one, she was more committed to the relationship than me.
This relationship has a lot of potential, I just can't get over the fact that I haven't been with a girl that I have been madly in love with, and want to experience that feeling. On the contrary, if I end this relationship I will never see this girl again who truly loves me and accepts me for who I am. I'm afraid I won't find that in another girl.
I just want to be happy, without doubting the relationship I'm in!! I feel like I'm leading this girl on and if I continue the relationship I will continue having doubts.
What should I do?? Any help please!!