Hi,
Five days ago, I've been dumped by my, now ex, girlfriend of six months. Over past 2 weeks, while I've been increasingly warm and loving towards her, she grew more distant and cold for me, as if to counteract me. Now that I think of it, there have been a lot of signals of the break up looming on the horizon. The magic of first love is our ignorance that it can ever end, I suppose.
I have no hopes of intentions of winning her back. What I want is to find joy in life and spend days without any stinging thought about her. I'm going through mood swings. Fortunately I feel happiness too. Whenever I find myself being angry or resenting my ex, I immediately try to cull the negative feelings. I seek refuge in music and meeting my friends but I intend to do more. I'm thinking about getting a proficiency certificate in English, maybe starting to learn a new language. I've also been thinking about learning to sing, as I've always wanted to. This however might be doomed to failure, since I probably lack the talent needed.
Basically, what I'm trying to do is to collect all the parts of my shattered self and rebuilding myself. I want to pick myself up and come out of this as a stronger, better person, deserving love of that one wonderful girl that I believe is somewhere out there, waiting for me. I've made peace with the fact that it probably isn't the last breakup I will have. I will go through this pain, but I'm keeping my eyes on the ultimate destination, which is being with the girl that's right for me.
I've decided to write about myself, cause my mood swinged the wrong way today and I'm feeling very lonely and vulnerable.
I'll greatly appreciate any words of advice.
Thank you.