Hi guys, hope you can help, looking for some brutal honesty/constructive advice if you have any going spare
Basically I'm a bisexual woman in a civil partnership (UK same sex partnerships) with a woman who I love, but aren't in love with if you get me. It'll be our 3rd CP anniversary in a few months.
Things have been strained between us since I told her I don't want children, she does and she's pushing me away, we're not intimate anymore, we snap and row.
Because of this distance that's started between us I got to thinking about an ex, my first love from 10 years ago, who I split from due to distance rather than issues with our relationship.
I googled him and have emailed him. He's in an unhappy long distance relationship of seven years, no children and says he still has feelings for me. We've been emailing each other for five days and I feel he's still the man I fell in love with all those years ago.
He wants to meet up for a drink, but as much as I'd love to I can't, as I don't trust myself not to act on how I'm feeling and don't want to cheat on my CP, although I feel like I am as I've not told her we are emailing.
So, what do I do?
Thanks in advance,
Joannah