Hi everyone.
I've been in a long distance relationship with a guy for almost a year. He has always acted very in love with me and usually emails me several times a day and chats with me whenever he can on gmail, FB, etc.
But during that time we have had about 5 big rows (usually because of his unreasonable jealousy) where he has ended up finishing with me (blocking me from gmail etc). Usually he has only managed to keep that up for 5-10 days and then he comes back to me wanting to start again. However a week ago I exploded at him and I have to say a lot of it was my fault. He was trying to explain how to do something on the computer and I was slow to understand. My slowness to learn has made him impatient before but this time my confidence went and when he moaned about it, I just lost my head and said I was sick of everyone telling me I was like that. I really let rip at him and then angrily signed out. When I returned to my laptop that night I found a message in my FB saying. "Go to hell. You were bullshit tonight." Also he left another one saying "You are not my slave. You are free." In my gmail I found two emails saying "Bullshit." I said to him he was really rude and told him not to speak to me ever again. However I didn't expect him to actually go ahead with it! The next day I found myself deleted from his gmail and blocked from his FB.
I have a good friend who I have no romantic connection with at all, but who my guy is very jealous of. The morning after the row I had a chat with him and I joined his anti vivisection page on FB. I didn't friend him because my guy is so jealous. But in the evening my friend pinged me in gmail and told him that my guy had tried to friend him (my guy doesn't know him personally and has no idea my friend knows of our relationship). He had done it from an FB created just hours before, at about the time he had blocked me from gmail. Clearly he had created the new account to stalk me and once he found I had joined my friend's page, to spy on him also to see what was going on. My friend had said "do we know each other?" to which there was no reply and so he denied the friend request. He was shocked by this and said my guy is "sick". However I was a bit relieved because it proved my guy was secretly still interested in me.
But all week I have heard nothing from him.
The day before yesterday I emailed my guy saying how sad I was without him. He answered saying "we will be joined soon." But when I replied "Take care he said"You told me not to speak to you so you are the one who must decide if we talk." I replied that I was sorry and hadn't meant what I said. He ignored that email. So yesterday I sent him another email saying "R u there?" He immediately replied yes he was, but when I said "I love you" he said. "Better you forget me. My new "wife" and "girlfriend" is my project (he has this project he is very interested in and which I have supported him with in the past). I told him that ok I understood and I wouldnt bother him any more. He told me to get lost. I said that was very hurtful and he said "You have brought this on yourself. Now don't bother me." I said "Ok I'll go. I thought that you loved me but obviously I was wrong." His final message was "get lost."
I will now leave him alone but I feel devastated. This is the guy who, just the morning before the argument emailed me a picture of a woman in a wedding dress and the email was titled "Is this the dress you will wear?". This is the guy who shared everything with me and took photos wherever he went so he could send them to me through the day. The guy who even though we weren't married said he thought of me as his "wife". When I was unable to be online a couple of weeks ago he got all panicky and when I returned he said he felt a "big emptiness" without me.
What I want to know is, has he really finished with me for good or is he just fuming?
Thanks