hi..
I've got a bit of a dilemma thats been dragging on for a while now. I'll start off with some background information.
My girlfriend and I have been dating for 3 years now, shes 18 and im 22 now, so you do the maths. I was her first everything, and she has experienced everything with me. Now that she has started university she gets confused sometimes in what she wants. "What if..." She used to goto a girls catholic school so didnt have much interaction with guys. Now that she has other guys around her life i feel quite insecure as there has been incidents where she becomes friends with a guy and developes a attachment with them. This attachment leads to feelings and then confusion in what she wants. She tells me that whenever she gets close to a guy as friends sometimes she develops more feelings and she cant control how she feels.
She has never done anything physically unfaithful, but mentally yes. It's not the first time it has happened, and im beginning to wonder am i really the right guy for her or should i just let her go out and experience it for herself. But it hurts me too much to let go, and i cant bare her with someone else. She tells me these feelings blow over within a few days and she realises i'm the one she really wants. But if this is the case, then why does she develop feelings for other guys?
I fully understand that she was very young when she started dating me and i expected this to happen. But i never knew we would last this long and this is really troubling me. I dont know what to do anymore, one part of me wants me to let go, the other part wants me to hold on.. I'm afraid if i continue to let this relationship continue on i'll end up hurting more in the long run. She's my everything and i love her heaps.
Will she ever get over this stage of life without satisfying her curiousty?.. If we do break up i dont think i can be friends with her.. as i'll just feel too weird being yet so close but yet so far..
I feel so insecure about other guys around her now, im really lacking trust but i dont want to tell her that she shouldnt have friends as that is not how its ment to be. I respect the way she feels and i understand where she's coming from. But it hurts.