I told him that he had mislead me, because he knows how I feel for him.
Fool you once shame on him.
He called me crazy and told me to get over myself. He said we could remain friends, but nothing more. Well this week, he has been over twice, and we have made love several more times (he initiated it).
Fool you twice SHAME ON YOU. You are'nt a victim here, luv. He told you outright that all you were is "friends" and you went ahead and voluteered to be his bedmate anyway. After that convo about you getting over yourself, you volunteered instead of telling him to get TF out of your life for good.
Is he just messing with me? He's told me that he is still in love with he,
Wait, What? Didn't he just tell you to get over yourself and that all you were is friends (better title coming from him would have been fb's.)
Sorry to drone on, but, he really has a grasp on me. He has gotten me so depressed with his actions that once (last year), I attempted to end my life. Stupid, I know. I am just so confused. Any input would be great.
As soon as you FORGIVE YOURSELF for volunteering to lay with a man after he clearly told you to "get over yourself" then you will find it much easier to get over someone like him. While you're getting over him, reflect on why you would ignore what he said to you, unless it suited what you wanted to hear. If this guy is in the armed forces, he'll **** his way across the war zone. You could NEVER trust him and he should never try to be in a monogamous union.
A good exercise for you would be to write down all the red flags that you can look back and pin point. That way, in future you'll see a sociopath early on before he dazzles you with his science and YOU can dismiss yourself from the situation before you are addicted to his shit.
Write your list here if you find it cathartic.
“The willingness to accept responsibility for one’s own life is the source from which self-respect springs.” ~Joan Didion