MORE victim mentality. Forgive yourself for what you allowed happen in your life. The sooner you do that, the sooner you will grow from this. If you want help in overcoming your disappointment and pain of not getting your own way and ending up with the ****tard you've been trying to steal away from his wife for 4 years then start a new thread and we'll walk you through some things you can do to move on (and away) from this man. But to listen to your victim mentalitity is SMH worthy.
YOU made a fool out of yourself when you bedded a married man.
YOU listened to his words instead of paying attention to his actions.
HE did not take advantage of you. You volunteered and now you blame it all on him instead of taking responsiblity for your own naive stupidity.
For your son's sake, I hope you're smart enough to actually mean that.I used to feel as if he will always be a part of me because I had a baby with him but now it's not about him. It's all about my son.
You Are Not A Victim. Accept that and you'll get over this emotional turmoil much more quickly.
It a given that he's a fking douche bag to the nth degree (incomprehensible why you'd even want him permanently in your life since he's proved to you that he's a cheating twat) That doesn't excuse your own culpability, not one little bit does it.
Again: Simply because women of low self worth/respect allow them to. Actions speak lounder then words and when you seen (after 4 years *rolls eyes*) that he wasn't leaving his marriage then you should have left him (long befor 4 years) and you should have made sure that you were vigilant in your birth control method. Sadly your scheme did not garner you this ugly man you pine over.Why do you men string women along?.