Hi, everyone. I really need to vent and could use some opinion/suggestions on this because I feel like I don't have anybody with whom I can talk to about this.
I have a boyfriend whom I've been dating for about 4 months and I met him 9 months ago. I know I'm in love with him, but I feel like I can't understand him. He is a very rational, logical and thoughtful guy. He cares a lot about dysmystifying social constructions, thinks a lot about having an open mind and he's just very smart and intelligent. That is one of the things that attracts me the most about him. The thing is that I think he takes it too far. He literally has moments of deep sadness (almost like momentaneous short depressions?) because he feels alone in the world and as if the way he thinks is unique. He gets mad at society for not having an open mind and all those kinds of philosophical things.
What bothers me is that I do agree with what makes him think that way, but I just hate the way he then deals with it. He thinks everybody must feel the need to feel superior to others (because "we're free to do it"), he thinks it's okay to laugh and make jokes about my theist beliefs because "it's not because I laugh that I don't respect you" and I know his friends make jokes about me in regards to this (believing in God) and he doesn't do anything about it because "they're free to make jokes about it. It's just a joke". Now I do think it's possible to joke with something and still respect it, but it bothers me. I just feel like he is too much of a snob, an elitist and arrogant. And I don't know how to tell him that because I do agree with what makes him think the way he does. I just can't accept that he uses that to think he's the best and the others know nothing about anything.
And then I start having ideas of breaking up with him, because I just can't understand why he is like this and I don't think I can handle being with a person that has such a different way of displaying his beliefs. It's just frustrating. It's like I love and hate him at the same time. This is my first relationship and I'm just going crazy lately. I don't know, maybe I'm just unexperienced and I'm blowing things out of proportion, but has anybody been in similar situations? Thanks.