My and my ex got together when she was 15 and I was 16.
We was together for 2 years and 8 months.
She was 18 when we broke up I was 19.
It was about 20th August last year (2013) she broke up with me. It's now 31st March 2014.
In the last 3 months of our relationship she was getting closer to this guy she worked with (part time weekend job). He was 1-2 years older than me and a manager there.
About 6 weeks before we broke up she wanted us to have a 'break' but I was very against it so that didn't happen and we continued on together.. 3 weeks after that (the day before we broke up) she went out up the city with her work colleagues as someone there was leaving.
I dropped her off up the city about 9:00pm and picked her up at 3:00 and took her back to hers and we went straight to bed, she wasn't very talkative. The next morning we was laying in her bed and she was very off with me. I kept asking what's up what's up and she said 'you know what's up', and it basically ended there. I was HEARTBROKEN. I got dressed and left. She saw me out, tears in her eyes, tears in mine. No goodbye kiss, I think we hugged though. Driving home in just want to plough straight into a tree. I felt so sick.
Did she cheat on me? I don't know. I don't want to know. Chances are high judging by the way it ended but I try not to think about it.
I think she started seeing him because I'm friends with her neighbour on Facebook, he got a new car, uploaded a pic and I see a car which I believe was this other guys car (from her work) but his relationship status hasn't changed from single (I've checked a few times) and I wouldn't know by looking at her profile because I've blocked her. Also blocked her twitter. The thought of seeing her moving on with other guys would hurt too much so I thought blocking was the best idea.
So yeah. She was my best friend, I loved her with all my heart. I called her beautifull, I called her my princess every day. I paid for the majority of days / meals out. I was never afraid to hang around with her and my friends at the same time. She came to all my family events.
So here we are 7 months down the line and I STILL miss her. I've been missing her more this month than ever. There hasn't been a day gone by where she hasn't popped in my head at some point during the day. I keep on dreaming about her. Some dreams we're still together as a couple. Some dreams we get back together.
This is the communication we've had since the breakup.
About October she texts me saying hi in have a new number how are you? It understand if you don't want to reply to this x
So I never replied, I wanted to try and forget about her.
Maybe 2 weeks later I replied.. We exchanged about 5 texts and that was it.
Then she texts me at Christmas to say merry Christmas. I say merry Christmas back and that was it.
Then she texts me in February asking how I'm doing and we exchanged 7-8 texts.
She texts me again 2-3 weeks ago saying 'was that you who just drove by?!x' I said no because it wasn't. We exchanged a few texts, the last text to be sent was from me. I replied to her asking how my work was going and I said fine fine etc and ended it with you? Or something like that and never got a reply. A week later she follows me on Instagram? .. And that's all the communication we've had.
I haven't been with any other girls in the 7 months we've been apart, haven't even kissed another girl. There's no-one else out there I want apart from her. 7 months I've resisted being the 1st one to make conversation but this past week has been so difficult! I've had my phone in my hands about to text her how I'm feeling every night, but my mind tells me not too. My mind is probably doing the right thing, but my heart is crying out to have her back. I still love her deeply.
What do I do? Do I tell her I still have these feelings?
Sorry about the essay but I thought it best to include every detail so you people understand the situation.