Bonjour.
A simple story. Married, kids...I asked for a separation last year from my wife. Love lapsed over the years.
46 yrs old. I live in our shared house. Last year was a whirlwind of dates and lust from online hook-ups. No drama and no love...but fun. I felt free and untouchable. Impervious to heartache....
Then I met her. At the gym. Flirted. Just a crush- no big deal. She was...married. We talked. I felt her loneliness. I fell in love. She said she loved me. We spent time together. Secret and precious. Magical.
She then had to make a decision about her marriage and entered counseling. I did not pressure her. Who was I to pressure her?
We had to put the physical and emotional on hold. A few days ago, she was crying because her marriage had collapsed. I love her but i feel guilt and longing and hope and love...
What to do...I can only live, love and go forward...what to do? Move on? She is an emotional wreck...yet, I love her.
J ...