Hi, i have been with my fiance just over 20 years we have a small boy together.. for 3 years prior to falling pregnant i was having a serious affair.. my fiance asked me if i was seeing someone and i admitted i was.. i was suprised to find myself begging for forgiveness and asking him to stay.
However, for quite a few weeks after that day i continued to see the other man until i found out i was pregnant then i ended the affair for good.
A BIT OF HISTORY
I have had quite a few flirtatious moments with several different men prior to the serious affair.
4 years on i met another guy on FB and have been seeing him for the past 18 months.. he tells me he loves me and is always there for me, however i always say i dont trust him or hes using me .. he replied by saying that given the fact that i used the previous fella for three years and then disgarded him that it me who is in fact " a liar and a user"
JUST PRIOR TO THAT .. MY FIANCE HAD ASKED ME AM I SEEING SOMEONE ELSE I SAID NO!
Just a few days ago i ended it with the new man and he is of course upset..
I have ended it with him several times over the past 18 months but we always end up back together .. mainly if he starts dating again I GET JEALOUS GRR.
The last time i did this he told me that if i wrecked his chances of moving on then ended with him again then he would tell my fiance.
this time ive told him i love my fiance and dont want him ever again. but only two weeks ago i had said to him that i loved him and just couldnt leave while i was with him because i didnt want to hurt my fiance again... so yes im giving out very mixed messages please help whats wrong with me?
can i just add that i have not had full sex with the new man.. i did with the one prior to that but regretted it and didnt want to feel the same.
IF YOU REQUIRE ANY MORE INFORMATION I AM AN OPEN BOOK I NEED TO WORK OUT WHATS GOING ON
THANK YOU X