I'm not even entirely sure how this happened...
The first guy I have been seeing since June. We see each other once a week, not overly committed to each other, we give each other space but make time for each other. I like it. It's perfect. It's what I want. NO commitment. Also, he is gorgeous, intelligent and the sex is great. Like I said, no commitment so I went on a date with another guy about a month ago.
It was a fine date. The next day I texted my first guy to hang out that day, he said he was busy. Later that night I went for a walk and saw the first guy on a date with a girl. It really bothered me. So I went home had a bottle of wine while I was in the bathtub and texted the guy I went on a date with the night before.
He invited me over to his place and He didn't know I was drunk but we watched a movie, made out and then had sex.
The next week I ended things with the first guy. Then a couple days later we got back together.
Then for the 2-3 weeks I have been telling myself I'll end things with the second guy but I never end up doing it because we have so much fun together.
The guys don't know about each other. I haven't felt the need to say anything because my plan every week was to end things with one of them.
At the end of the day I want to be with the second guy but I don't want a boyfriend right now and that's what we would be if I stopped seeing the first guy. If the second guy found out I was seeing another guy he'd be extremely upset and possibly hate me.
Yup.