Hey guys I need help, I've been trying many many times to solve this huge problem of mine. I don't need you to discourage me about this because I want to keep it so I'd just need your opinions.
I've been talking to this guy since 1 year and half, like a distance relationship of kinda. Never met yet.
It's a sad story since we met at first I pretended because I was insecure but he found out and I told him everything about me. He didn't really hate me about it because he and I love each other so much. I might of lied few times and I swear I've truly felt bad as I have always apologised.
I'm not going to defend myself in general I do have a fault.
We've haven't been getting along since a very long time, I would act nice and stuff but he just ignores me or doesn't care. Says things to hurt me and he knows that I should hate him but I don't.
There are times we get along perfectly and I sometimes feel that he might still love me but just hide it because I do too. And because there aren't any chances to meet I slowly lose hope. He has been jealous, he has been worried about me. I've noticed that last month. But this month whatever I do or say without meaning it he takes it seriously and say that I'm weird, crazy, obsessed, psycho. How to prove him I'm not???????
I'm not any of that... I've tried to get along, I've been honest an year and I've promised myself to not do this ever again.
This month tho things are going disastrous.
If I message him first he gets annoyed, ignores, swears at me makes me feel so shitty. Brings me down and I can't explain the right reason for it. I know you'd say get over him. He's not worth it. Stuff like that but I seriously don't want to give up on my dream and that's to meet him someday.
I let him bring me down because I don't want to lose him but I'm so enough with it I'm thinking to not message him this rest of the month. Because I'm tired of being treated like one psycho. And one nothing.
Anyways
Thanks for reading please respond.