at some point it stops being a social competition really. when we are young it is much easier to get along with anyone. but as we age, we mature at different paces. there's a chance that others might've matured or found themselves already and thus it is a little bit shocking/amusing to them that you are a little bit behind. of course no one has the right to judge, however it is what we all have to face our entire lives.
i sort of wish for you to find a more realistic goal. something that will suit your family as well as you.
mo'Dajvo' pa'wIjDaq je narghpu' He'So'bogh SajlIj