Just when I think I have it all figured out ! Timepiece makes some great points. When I do figure it all out. Instead of thinking about how to end things I am going to try telling him what is going on in my head and heart. I hope when the time to talk comes... in person, I will find the words to tell him. If he knows where I am, I won't feel so dishonest, which is what I feel right now keeping these things from him.