well, you're a clear case of low seft-esteem and insecure. Love will craw its ways to you so dont need to be so depressed. Lift your spirit, believe in yourself
keep it simple
Self-esteem isn't bragging about how great you are. It's more like quietly knowing that you're worth a lot (priceless, in fact!). It's not about thinking you're perfect — because nobody is — but knowing that you're worthy of being loved and accepted.
"Me, I try to send this note
float it like a paper boat
But paper sinks
and words are weak
i try, but i cant speak"