our bodies are much weaker than our spirit.

[shh!]

Oh, man! That was unexpected, wasn't it? What happened?

[misombra]

he had heart problems. he was old. he smoked a pack and half a day. drank a lot, etc. etc.

he was in his 80's too. bummer. total bummer.

[shh!]

Sorry, hun. You sure are having a bad streak of luck, aren't you? I wish we lived closer so we could go out a-drinkin'. It sounds like you could use it.

[misombra]

i need a massage.

you guys should've seen the funeral procession though. wow. there were so many cops. i'd say there were 10 cops in cars and 15 on motorcycles. they closed the freeway for us. we had an honor guard, 3 gun salute, bagpipes, trumpets. it was incredible.

my other grampa, well, my mom didn't even call me to tell me about it. my dad told me.

[Mish]

Wow

2 in one go? That's horrible! It's so unfair. It must be really devastating for you

So, you're like me now. No grand parents at all.

At least the funeral procession was quite spectacular. If I could choose, I'd like to go like that as well when it's my time.

[misombra]

yep, no more grandparents left for me.

what are the chances that one grandfather will die during the other grandfathers funeral? it's just my luck i think.

i'm an outcast in my mothers family. not her or anyone from her family called or wrote to let me know. i'll have to find out when the funeral is in the obituary.

how sad is that? that's more sad than all the death put together for me.

[shh!]

What's wrong with your mom's side of the family? They sound really fcuked up.

[misombra]

they're not all ****ed up. my mom is. and it's like she works at keeping me and my sister from her family. i really think she's trying to forget that she had children.

my sister said yesterday that she didn't give a shit about those people. (meaning my moms family.) i wish i could feel the same.

[shh!]

Can't you maintain contact without your mom's involvement?

[misombra]

yeah. i can. and i just called one of my cousins and wrote another one.

it's just weird, you know? one of those things i have a hard time dealing with, so i just don't. and it picks and prods at me constantly.

i need mental help.

[RSK]

hey, im really sorry for your loss, i know it is hard to lose somebody. when my grandmother passed away, i thought of it this way, that she is home, somewhere peaceful, and happy.

you just have to treasure any memories, like the song you use to sing. and pass it down generations, so that your grandfathers will NEVER be forgotten, and in that sense, a part of them will live on forever.

hope you're feeling better, hang in there.

[shh!]

one of those things i have a hard time dealing with, so i just don't. and it picks and prods at me constantly.

I don't bother with any of my relatives outside of immediate family anymore, either.

[misombra]

i'm afraid that my mother will die and our relationship will always be ****ed up.

[shh!]

Maybe they know she has issues, too. It could be a commonality that would allow you to bond more closely to them...

[Tone]

Life is just part of the journey.

The first part, I believe.