You actually don't know how things would have turned out with this girl had you told her to take it slow, instead of the plain truth. Maybe in a few months you would have broken up because you wouldn't have been able to fully connect, or the infatuation disappeared. Maybe it would have been even worse then. Anyway, six months before or six months later, if you were indeed the one for each other you should have both felt it, don't you think? But you didn't, so your idea about what this relationship could have been or would have been it's incorrect, and circumstances had little to do with the outcome, especially because you played it fairly. I personally think that none of those two women was the right one for you or you shouldn't have had so serious doubts and for so long.
You need to rebuild your identity and this time around something much more stable, reliable and fulfilling. Relationships come and go in life and even the greatest love fades sometimes, so you owe it to yourself to build a strong, happy self with meaningful passions in life that may appreciate a nice compatible person when encountered but would not revolve all his being around her.
I think you're not supposed to learn about how honest or less honest you should be in a relationship through this experience, but to detach and redirect your energy on something that could help you (and others) grow as a person, something that you could be passionate about, and learning to leave gracefully something that wasn't meant for you. Maybe it will take you some time, but when you'll succeed you won't believe how good it feels, so much better than anything this woman or any other could offer you :-)
P.S. Sorry for derailing your thread, OP.
Last edited by Valixy; 06-05-14 at 03:33 PM.
Searock, I think your right in thinking that my relationship won't survive and I think your right in thinking that it shouldn't survive.
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Your right I should have thought about the consequences of what I was doing but I just didn't think the about what the consequences would be and to be completely honest as to why I did it. I did it just because I could do it without giving any thought to what happened afterwards and I was alone with a another women because I lied to my fiancée about who I was hanging out with that day.
Well you aalreay know you dont deserve her. it doesnt sound like a ONS to me. Its an emotional affair-not that it makes a difference now
You should be alone and get your s**t together. Figure out whats lacking in you that you cannot commit fully and figure out why you felt the need to get involved with someone else
And then after much self evaluation-you may be ready to settle down. Right now you have a lot of lessons to learn.
And if you figure out that you cannot "commit" and be loyal-then dont pretend you can
"Don't ask a question if you can't handle the answer".
Tell her the truth... My ex cheated on me and I found out 6 months down the line... It ruined everything...
You stand a better chance by coming clean