my gut has been pitted.

[Mish]

thanks you guys.

i had to get out of bed because i can't ****ing sleep!!!

this pit in my stomach is really bothering me. i need some pepto bismol or something.

I developed a routine that helps me get through moments like this and it gets me out of this mood every single time.

First I go to my favourite coffe place where me an my ex from way back used to go to. It brings a lot of memories from back in the day which brings with them a whole range of other feelings to replace the current one.

Then I go back home and play guitar for an hour. After that I put on some deep music which seems to be in touch specifically with these depressing feelings (something from "Scream Silence" or "Depeche Mode"). After all of the above suck out my bad mood I go out with friends and have a good time.

This always remedies me. Do you have a remedy routine you can use right now?

[misombra]

i'm pretty sure this is one of the worst feelings i've ever had.

[Mish]

i'm pretty sure this is one of the worst feelings i've ever had.

I hope you'll get better soon

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Things get damaged
Things get broken
I thought we'd manage
But words left unspoken
Left us so brittle
There was so little left to give

[bluesummer]

I am feeling so much for you right now. This has got to be hard for you.

I know words can only be so much of a comfort to you right now, but I hope our support here helps a bit. Do you have some really good girlfriends there that you can can go out and have some drinks with, and really get shit off your chest? Sometimes pulling yourself out of the negative environment for a while can ease the pain and give it a fresh perspective.

Beyond that, it doesn't appear you guys have discussed this at all. I don't know if you guys are avoiding it or what, but this is going to eat at you (the not knowing what's going on in his head) until you talk. Although he's the one who's done you wrong, you need to give him the opportunity to say what's in his heart and head (with no reservations), regardless if it turns out to be a bunch of bs. He's playing the victim here for some reason. Whatever he says could ultimately decide the fate of your relationship, if he hasn't made up his mind already.....but at least you'll know, and can get on a path to feeling better about things.

[misombra]

thanks you guys. thanks for the song.

i have more thoughts in my head and so much more thinking to do that i'm pretty sure i'm losing my mind and i'm also pretty sure i'm giving myself an ulcer.

i have friends and stuff though. and i will be fine.

[bluesummer]

I got an ulcer when my ex dumped me for another chick. It was awful. I really hope you don't get one.

[misombra]

you did? omg so it can happen.

how did it feel? did you feel gutted?

how long did it last? i'm wondering because this feeling is not going away and is keeping me up at night.

[bluesummer]

Yeah, it was the stress. I felt completely gutted, too. It went on for me for about six months (sorry to say, but then I was also young and pretty weak-minded). The stress was so bad, I didn't sleep...I threw up...I didn't eat...I got an ulcer. I also became an alcoholic for about a year.

I was what my doctor referred to as 'emotionally traumatized'.

Ulcers hurt. Do avoid them at all costs.

[shh!]

Did he come home last night?

[misombra]

he had to work graveyard last night. i was out all day, he was gone all night. he came home this morning but i told him i couldn't be around him until we talked about what happened. he's asleep. he'll be there much of the day and i can't expect him to talk about after he worked a graveyard shift.

i'm feeling a little better but my stomach is upset. maybe because we haven't talked about it yet.

[IndiReloaded]

Don't make any decisions about anything while your emotions are high. You know the drill; you've given that same advice here hundreds of times. Pause & take care of yourself like Mish suggests. Wait until the feeling of urgency has passed, then decide what you want to do.

[squirrley]

I say the same as Indi. Hold off on any huge discussions until you've cooled down some and the super bad feelings subside "some". He's in the wrong and being a butt. You'll probably continue to be upset until you do talk, but try to keep busy and think positive for yourself. Know that no matter what YOU will be ok. Because you are you and you are a very strong woman.

Don't let him walk on you or play you Mis. This could be a good indicator of things down the road. Keep your chin up honey, damn my tummy churns for you. I hated those moments in relationships. But know you have a ton of people around you who care about you!!

[misombra]

I developed a routine that helps me get through moments like this and it gets me out of this mood every single time.

First I go to my favourite coffe place where me an my ex from way back used to go to. It brings a lot of memories from back in the day which brings with them a whole range of other feelings to replace the current one.

Then I go back home and play guitar for an hour. After that I put on some deep music which seems to be in touch specifically with these depressing feelings (something from "Scream Silence" or "Depeche Mode"). After all of the above suck out my bad mood I go out with friends and have a good time.

This always remedies me. Do you have a remedy routine you can use right now?

i don't have a routine. but if i did, i'd like it to include a few hours in a spa. i'm thinking of buying myself a little package for the weekend.

[squirrley]

There ya go! Detox time

[bluesummer]

Hot stone massages rock. They will melt all your worries away....for about an hour, anyways.