Hello! I know that I'm not going to tell you something that never happened to anyone else...but I just need an advice. My boyfriend broke up with me a year ago (after a relationship of almost 2 years) but I still miss him. I haven't seen him for a year. I admit that after we broke up I spent 2 weeks begging him to come back. But then I gave up because it all started to seem impossible and just a way to loose my self esteem. Last week it was his birthday and I decided to text him a "Happy Birthday" message. He was curious to find out who sent him the message and called me. He was surprised to hear my voice, but we had a short conversation: he was thanking me for the message and asking me if I'm ok...just usual things. And that was all. And it was the first time we spoke after a year. And it probably be the last time. I don't know why I did this, perhaps for the good times we had together. I also don't know why I still have him in my head and in my heart. After all, he made me suffer a lot. I tried to let go, I tried to fell in love again and I had 2 relationships, which were not longer than a month or two, although I gave my best to make them work. After that I realised once again that I still love him and bla bla bla.. To be honest with you I'm tired of wanting him back but I just can't help loving him. I don't know what to do. My friends keep telling me that it's wrong to think about him over and over again and I know that too. My life seems normal but under the surface I suffer. And of course any plan about getting him back is just an insane thing, he is already with someone else and even if he was single my chances were very low I think after all this time.And then again, let's suppose that I have some chances, in that case I don't want to make that someone else suffer. I love him, I miss him and I want him back. In a normal world that is so wrong, I agree. So what should I do?
PS: Thank you for reading all this.