I recently realized that I had feelings for a coworker Im really close too, but its too late because she has a kid now and the boyfriend is a complete idiot and thats not my opinion a large chunk of her family and at work think hes an idiot. The last 2 days was just hell for me finally realizing this and knowing I actually had a chance, because she told me now im super bummed out and I feel like this idiot isn't going to change. I try to keep thinking it's over just move on but its really difficult. I keep thinking of what if situations but it makes it worse.