I need some opinions on this message that I don't know whether to send to my ex. We haven't spoken for a week and a half now, altho she did text me on Saturday saying "hope you're ok x" but I didn't reply. We broke up because she cheated and really she wanted to try out th single life after being with me for 3 years. We never argued or fell out, and the break up was totally out of the blue...so here it goes....
If you think I don't miss you every minute of the day, you would be so wrong.
If you think I don't think about you all through the day, you would also be wrong.
If you also think I don't need or want you anymore, you would be 100% wrong.
And if you think I don't go to sleep every single night, not hugging my pillow, wishing it was you, then you don't know me at all.
I can't talk to you, because I can't let myself show those feelings anymore, because they don't mean anything to you. Its so hard not having you in my life anymore, I miss you being around here so much. And I miss just having you to hug and to mess about with. But when I think about you, I think about how you have hurt me so bad, and how it feels to know that you don't seem to care, or miss me, or need me, or want me, or even regret anything. And if any thoughts slip through, i think about you with her, because the thing that breaks me the most, is the fact that you told me one of the reasons we broke up was because you wanted to be single.....*
So that's what stops me from speaking to you.*
I hate not having you in my life anymore. But I kinda have to make this sacrifice if I HAVE to get over you.*
I never did anything horrible to you, I always loved you with my entire heart and tried to make you feel special....*
I don't know why I get this :-(*
Your different to me now, I can't imagine what we used to be like. And if I'm totally honest, every time I think about you, I imagine it being *my horrible ex* because she would hurt me, and I hate thinking that you have hurt me too, because I never ever imagined it from you.*
I still Love You, and care for you, and want you to be okay, that hasn't gone, and it won't, but I don't like you anymore. You're not the loving nugget head, who I want back.*