So I'll start by saying I think a large cause of my lingering feelings is the fact that I just don't have ANYONE I'm remotely interested in right now. Not that I want to find love in a foreign country that I'll be leaving, Vash, but the usually overactive part of my brain responsible for pining after men has been deprived recently.
Anyway, I can't help getting frustrated whenever I think of the outcome with Irish Guy. I'm not talking like painful crushing, losing sleep - he crosses my mind every few days at most. I also think I'm going to see him randomly, which happened once already. I know that not contacting me for the past 4 months since we saw each other again is a 100% clear rejection. Shouldn't that be enough closure for me??
It's been almost 2 years since the day we met and in the meantime I've fallen hard for, and gotten over, someone else (mostly). I just have this horrible feeling that I gave a bad impression on our last (i.e. second) date (talked too much, although I can't be sure that's the reason) and he threw away all potential for something good.
I'm thinking of writing him a letter, I think it might help me. Any suggestions?