Hi I've been reading this forum for the past week or so because I have been feeling depressed about the current situation I am in.
Okay so first, I am pretty young, I have just turned 21 in December. Me and my current girlfriend met in high school when I was 16. Our relationship was never the ideal one you see in movies, but since it was my first long term relationship I just thought it was normal. Actually things were pretty good up until a year or two into the relationship. One day we just had a very big fight and she just told me she didnt wanna hear or talk to me any more. Of course I was torn. I didnt know what to do so I just partied my sorrow away. after about a month or two I started talking to another girl, she was a mutual friend of mine and my gf. We started to hit it off and started to hang out sometimes. Finally one day I get a call from my gf (ex at the time) asking if i could meet her up cause she needed someone to talk to. One thing led to another and eventually we got back together. The problem was she found out about the other girl and went insanely jealous. Before the incident I had a lot of friends that were girls because they were more like family friends that I grew up with. After that incident and when we got back together she just got mad every time I talked to them. at the time i felt as if it was understandable seeing as i did move on from her with someone else. but what else was I supposed to do?
Fast forward to now and it is the same. By this time we have gone on breaks or break ups a couple more times. The one that makes me really mad is the one time where we broke up for a couple months and she started getting a lot of attention from other guys. actually started a new relationship. Somehow we got back together and every so often she would tell me as a joke or somethign that she could get another guy if she wanted. I mean is that something okay to say? Now I dont have any friends that are girls really. When I would have an assigned group for a project that involves a girl she would completely freak out and get mad. Another thing is that when I would tell her I am going to go out with my cousin she would be pressuring me to tell her who was there and if any girls were around and to text constantly. Now at this time I drive and using the phone while driving is illegal where we are from. Still she insists I text and gets mad at me for not texting. So pretty much I cant have friends that are girls and the friends I do have I cna go out with them, but she will be mad anyways.
So what I am asking for is advice on what to do. I mean I love her and I kind of feel partly responsible for her jealous behavior, which she tells me is the case anyways. Is it reasonable for her to be this jealous? I want to make it work cause I have been with her for so long and of course we do have good times. Whenever I do feel like leaving, almost immediately i feel like staying. its weird I can never make up my mind.
Thanks for reading and any help is appreciated. sorry if its a little long