i messed up

[winters_child]

hello

Well long story short I am a bisexual female who has been talking to a female for about 5 months. It all started off great, we talked on the phone all day and when we were in class we would text and skype each other, until I stayed a weekend with her after not seeing her for 3 weeks and all we did was argue. We discussed the situations and made up, then last month her friend was killed but i knew nothing of it and she expected me to know and said i wasn't there for her. but how can i be there for a person who keeps shutting me out. every time i ask what is going on or whats wrong she comes back with don't worry about or i don't feel like talking about it. After she said i wasn't there for her, her whole attitude change and i no longer was babe, baby or "her lady" and the cute text msgs and phone calls stopped. i really liked her but i couldn't taker her rude attitude towards me. for example i would say "hey how is your day going?" and she would reply back "why do you care?" then an arguement would start. I would also say "if you don't want to talk to me anymore then just say it" and she would reply "i never said i wanted to stop talking to you", comments like that made me confuse with where she wanted to take our relationship. but anywho for about a month all the bickering and fussing was going on and she accused me of being in a relationship with a boy when i wasn't. then after about two months of putting up with her rudeness i started talking to a boy because he was giving me what she wasn't....he listened, we got a long. i guess i was lonely and week and went to the nearest thing that could comfort me. A couple of weeks ago a big blowout happend and she called me a liar (which i did lie to her) and said i was with the boy since may. I do admitt to lying about seeing the boy but the whole since may thing is crap cause i was with her all summer. anywho she didn't want to listen to my explanation to why i started talking to him, it was all about her and how i made her feel but yet she didn't understand how she was treating me made me feel like i wasn't wanted. but now that i realize that talking to him in the first place is wrong, i want to talk to get her back

[pisces25]

Why you are even persisting with her is beyond me after reading that. She is treating you like shit. Have some dignity.