This girl started to work on night's with me about 7 months ago. I have always found her very attractive, but i'm really shy. I've been going through alot over the passed 6 month's. For example, for a short time she went to the hospital for some reason and at work i'd find out about it and it really scared me. I literally was walking around crying because i felt so bad. But when she came back to work I was really glad to see her, but i've never said anything about it. I would casually say hi to her though and talk very little but that was about it.
What bother's me is for around the past 6 years i've always been holding on to this one girl, and i now I think i did that because i didn't want to get caught up in all of this again. I have always found girls attactive but just never really felt this strong about anyone since her.
One day i saw her settin in the smokeroom at work torn up after her and someone else got into a fight. Something happed to me that day. That day I totally fell for her and just let the other girl go. I mean when i stood nextto her she was sayin some things she was going through and i could totally relate to.Then someone came in to calm her down and i had to leave so i couldn't say much but when i got outside I swear I just felt so connected to her. Since that day my fellings have really goten stronger for her.
So now I somehow got the nerve to go to her and try to talk to her and she just told me she knows what i'm tryin to say, but she already has a boyfriend. But i know that about 4 months ago when i saw her in the smoke room she was going through alot and was single. Now I really regret not telling her how I felt that day cause i did the same thing to that other girl that i liked for 6 years. With everything that's happend it feels like my past has come back to haunt me. but in the end i think I actually feel more comfertable now around her and can actually face her. Since she is very social and just makes me feel so good when i talk to her even if it's only very briefly.
I'm 28 years old and i've made so many mistakes over the years and wish i never gave up to easily. and now because of it i've never had a girl up to this day. I really dont wanna make the same mistake i did 6 years ago. I don't know if i should tell her how I feel or not. Cause i'm afraid if I dont it may be very long time before I ever feel this way about a girl again. Would it be ok if I tell her how I feel after she's been seeing some other guy for maybe 2 months? I dont know what to do.