Hi all, this my first post so just wan to share something with you guys.
I with my ex for three years and she asked for broke off last years July. I was so sad and down. I did ask her back but failed. Then i stopped contacting and keep distance between us. But she keep calling me day by day although i avoided her call so many times. But at the end, i called her back becos i still love her. So started to contact each other again and i thought she want to be back. But when i asked her about the relationship, she said that she got a lot other things to think about and do since after her dad past away in August. She said let it be natural. So i just accept that and continue seeing her. During this few months from Sept till January 07, i seen a lot of things like message from a guy which she told me that they are just frenz, a photo of two of them in her car, phone call between two of them. I did confronted her but she keep on telling me that they are just frenz and accuse me being thinking too much and dont trust her. Then i just remain silents and stop suspecting her. But i did tole her that they a lot of guys out there better than me. I dont mind if u go as i just want to see you happy thats it. She told me that im telling nonsense and im the only one for her.
During this few months we did have sex like two weeks once. During Chritsmas, she gave me a present so i thgouht we already back together and im little bit happy that time. Then later she joined my company and we went to work together everyday. Had breakfast, lunch and dinner togther almost everyday. Recently i loan her some money as she need it urgently so without thinkning much, i went to seek for help from my frenz. I loaned her the money and her no to return back as i love her. Money is not a big deal to me although im not rich
So i thought that she stoped contacting that guy and came back to me for good. But im wrong. Last week, during 2nd day of Chinese New Year, that guy call me up. Asking me y i always call her. Then i knew whats is going on all the while. I asked him whether they are still together and he said yes. I told him that she nvr admit at all. Then he asked me wat actually going on between me and her as he also suspecting her hiding things from him. So i dont know why i lied to this guy telling him that i thought she wants to come back to me but at the end no and we are just frenz after that. Telling him that i was just helping her family since after her dad past away and nothing else. Then i told him that if u guys are together then just love her and trust her. I mentioned to him that i wan to see you guys happy. I didnt know y i said this. Now im being accuse as the third party in thier relationship. I told that guy i will stop contact her. A day after that, i returned all things she gave to me to her mum and explained to her mum what is going on. Then i went off after that.
She message me that i dont have to return back the things. Asking are we still frenz? and telling me that she will return back the money to me. i didnt reply her but message her mum that she will need to stop contact me or else i do foolish things. She stopped after that.
Now i felt so bad and down. I was being fooled by her all the while. I gave her whatever she need even i cant do it but still try. Now what do i get, being accused being third party. I felt so cheated, betrayed and low.
Now i kind of hating my life. I resigned two days ago and i wanted to go out from this place. Too many sweet memories here which i cant stop thinking about her. I wonder why a nice girl like her changed to be so cruel.
Just to tell u guys that i still love her and miss her. Although i choose to go away from this place but i will and always love her quietly.
I wondered why ppl lied to thier lovers? I mean if you dont like or love them then just tell them rather than lying to them to hurt them so much. Now im so afraid to step into relationship again as im afraid to go through a painful relationship again.
I wish ppl out there stop cheating and lying to your lover. Stop being unfaithful to ur lover. It wont bring any happiness. Anything wrong just discuss and dont think that you lie becos u dont wan to hurt them. you lie you cheat you hurt them more.