Hello all, I need an advice, especially from girls since they clearly have more insight into such things.. the situation is comical and I feel very guilty that I did all of this to myself since it brought depression into my life..
when I was 25 I went to follow a 3 years economy course in a sort of evening education school. I was a complete success when I went there, I was making more money than I could spend, had a relationship and was shining with happiness.
At school I met a girl who I became friends with, after 6 months or so I caught myself having positive thoughts about her which bothered me more and more.. To save my relationship I decided to scale down my friendship with her and practically began to ignore her completely. She saw that I liked her and decided to have some fun with me.. She would frequently smile at my face and sit near me during the classes, she kept provoking me also during the second grade..
After the second grade she came to apply for a job in our company and during the interview she mentioned my name (as my boss told me: "when she said your name, the emotion on her face made me think that you two have a relationship). of course I had no choice but to give her positive recommendation and she got hired. So she actually used my feelings to get a job in our company. During her short carreer we talked a few times but on irrelevant subjects.. She quit after 2-3 weeks or so.
Then I decided to exclude her from my life completely and repeated the second grade while she was in the final 3rd grade.
All this time we never talked about anything serious, I just could not trust her since she was spreading untrue rumours about me at school.
This year I came back to school knowing that she (a brilliant student who never failed anything) graduaded and I would never see her again. My depression was gone and thoughts about her began to fade.
Surprisingly she did manage to failed ONE single simple class twice and is doing the third grade all over again. She saw that im still in love with her and continued to smile at me and sit near me..
When we finally TALKED after three years she was sharp and said something like "f*** off, you are just a stranger to me and I have a boyfriend." Which is total bullshit since she is single.
I understand I made many mistakes and stuff but the question is :
WHY would anyone do this to me ? is she really THAT kind of a bitch ? was she just using me to feel better about herself ?