Really need your help here again guys. I'm 17 and I've been going after this girl who's 21. I've been really depressed as of late because I think I finally got on the nerves of this girl I know for 4 months.She used to call me everyday and if she didn't, I would call her.
We usually chatted for at least an hour a day or minimum of 3.5hr to 5hr a week on the phone, even though I see her once or twice a week.
Recently, she got a little sick so didnt call me for 2 whole days... I really felt like crying during that period but waited till the fourth day to visit her at her house. She was pretty ok by then and said that she'll resume calling me at night again. Night came but she sent me the same SMSes that said she was going to sleep and she would call me the next morning.
Morning came and she didnt call. I called for 5 times in a hour but she didnt pick up. This whole nonsense continued for another two days until finally, I did something real stupid.
I got drunk to get her attention. I thought showing up drunk in her house would show her the extent of the pain she had put me through and she would pity me and shower me with the same amount of love and attention she used to give me, so enthusiastically.
Thing is, she was not happy at all to see me and in fact, very pissed. She barked commands like "lie down here" and she had to shower me to get off the alcohol smell cos she knew I'd get in trouble with my parents. I expected her to be a little more caring and concerned and not so pissed but that was the kind of reception I got.
She then called me to check if I was home a hour after I left her house and once I said yes, she hanged up. Whats up with that?
So the next day, I called her many times to apologize but she didnt pick up so I sent her an sms asking for her forgiveness but didnt get one back. So I decided to go to her house again, thinking that showing up not-drunk would somehow lend me a certain degree of credence and redeem myself.
I saw her but she didnt smile at all. She didnt let me hold her hand or kiss her or even touch her at all. She was silent for like 10-15 mins plus and I really couldnt take it so I freaking cried like a kid. Someone told me girls cant stand it when guys cry but I didnt care or could hold it back any longer.
I think she softened up after that and churned out one-liners like "dont know", "nothing" and she asked me if I had a life. Soon, she asked me to go home and I asked her if she wanted to see me again. She said she would call me at night.
She did call me at night but she pretended nothing happened and tried to sound cheerful about everything. I asked if I could come over at to her house on new year's eve to spend time with her and she cheekily asked if I wanted to countdown with her. I said yes and she said ok.
So what does this mean? Did she really forgive me or something bad's gonna happen to me on new year's eve? If that's the case, i'd rather spend it with my family...