Ok so I have a problem. Maybe it's not a problem. Yeah it is. An intimacy issue.
My gf and i have been together for 2 years now. we're best friends and I've never pressured her for sex or anything but hugging and cuddling. I like to cuddle, dunno why. I've had her tell me I'm too needy and I can believe that. She's my first serious relationship ever.
Anyways the issue is we've never had sex but i can wait till she's ready. She is 6 years my senior, I am 27. I am simply not sexually attracted to girls my age, they just don't do anything for me. they can be attractive but not sexy, you know?
Anyways she wants to give me oral sex but I am not allowed to perform on her or have sex together. She tells me she wants my first time to be with a younger woman, someone more my age and then she will be my full-time GF. I don't understand what she means by this and when i press her she acts like my mother and just repeats what she originally said. I love her and i can't imagine my life without her [yeah i guess that's the needy part], as sappy as it sounds. How can i get her to open up to me? Sometimes she treats me like a little boy and other times she's very intimate.
I want her and me to be closer, share our feelings and be honest. She's holding back and I don't know why.