Hello everyone, i'm new here and i basically registered because of my need to talk about something..Well, i've grown up in a familly with no father(my parents divorced early on and my dad never really tried to communicate with us-unless you view a "happy birthday!"or a "marry christmas" phone call per year as a communication attempt). I can't help but to think this corrupted relationship with my dad has somehow affected me in ways i'm not even aware of, because i've got to tell you, my sexual life is not healthy..at all. I'm a 21 year old female and so far i've had sex with girls, boys, more than 2 boys at once etc and it was always casual sex with no feelings. An exeption to that was the one and only relationship i've had with my 1st girlfriend, if one could even call that a real relationship since it was always on the verge of romance and friendship and teenage confusion.. So now, i feel like i want a true relationship..strings attached and all. I want to FEEL things for someone and most importantly i want the other person to reciprocate my love. I really can't take any more abandonment and insecurity. I need to be loved..and at the same time i'm feeling so desperate..like i will never find this kind of love..like i'm not even worthy of it...What's wrong with me? I feel sick and broken..