Guys, I need your advise... I've been with my ex for 4 years. We were happy with our first two years after that we have a long distance relationship. I was not really agreeable to the situation.. I cheated on my ex-boyfriend with my officemate. I don't have any feelings for my officemate. He is a great conversationalist and mature. I can share my thoughts with him freely.My Ex found out and He got back on me by spreading the news at our office. And I feel so depressed and couldn't face the people at our office. I started isolating myself. It was the first time I cheated on him and he hated me for doing it. I couldn't blame him for his actions, I was his first girlfriend. But there was something missing in our relationship. He is not the typical sweet, romantic guy and I'm very vocal and keep asking him why he is not like that. When we have problems he just wont speak up and tell what's his opinion straight to my face. When he broke up with me he told me that he haven't totally accepted that I'm not his first and now that I have cheated on him, he's very devastated . I wanted him back but he don't want me anymore. HE hates me. What should I do? I'm now suffering depression...