i dont konw where to start with this thing honestly because have a lot of unanswered questions i would like solved.
id also like to apologize in advance for this being extremely long so for all you out there who hates reading, i get it, but please i need some help
a while back me and this girl got together i like her she likes me but right after the first date i just felt like my feelings for her had just depreciated slowly, at first i didnt accept it but then once i did my feelings for her just plummeted, i had none left for her
she didnt do ANYTHING wrong at all if anything she was doing perfect she was really willing and everything but i just lost feelings for her somehow i dont even know why. this seems to be the problem that i whenever i can confirm i like that someone and she likes me back i just feel my feelings for her just decreases, its as if whenever i get something i want, something i crave for even, i just dont feel like i want it anymore and it really bothers me
i hurt her really bad i mean not only has my feelings for her just lost but i also started to grow this hate for her and its just unbearable
the problem is me starting to even hate her, like i said she didnt do anytihng wrong
that girl isnt the problem, we broke up and i apologized and everything and we're just friends now
heres the problem, knowing that i might develop a hate for someone i like i just couldnt stand it, but this time its worse.
a while back i met this girl through a videogame and we chatted ever since then and i just found myself liking her, but then as things progressed i realized not only do i like her, i also love her
i legit want to spend the rest of my life with her and would never want us to seperate ever
i know this sounds all cheesy and everything and its like 'oh everyone says this' but im the kind of person that would never say something like that and the only reason why im saying this is because i actually want to.
i now understand the difference between liking someone or having a crush on someone and just full frontal loving someone
and the problem is, she lives in the us and i live in the uk, timezones just dont allow us to talk a lot
another problem is that we both have feelings for each other and i confessed about my feelings towards her and she has too and just im so afraid that ill start developing a hate for her
and i might just already have.
this is slowly killing me, these contradicting ideas that im both hating her and loving her and just i dont know what to do at all.
though this forum im trying to achieve few things
1. understand why it is that i start hating people i have feelings for
2. what it is i can do to help it
i tihnk thats really it, i really need help, this is slowly killing me, any help would be appreciated