So just as the title says, my girl left me, we've been in a relationship for a little over 3 months. It was kind of rocky at the beginning but we managed to get past that. We did however have a lot of arguments, which led to our demise a couple of weeks ago. I thought that I wasn't in the right mindset of wanting a relationship and that she was. She just got out of a 2 year relationship a few months before we started going out, from a boyfriend she really loved.
My dating/relationship history isn't very experienced. I liked (thought I loved actually) a girl for a little over 2 years but didn't go out (I told her, she just didn't think of me in that way). Liked a girl but never told her because I was afraid. Liked another girl and she liked me so we went out for about 8 months before she dumped me. It took me a little under 7 months to get over her. I liked another girl for about 5 months, same thing, never told her. And after that girl I liked another girl for about another 5 or 6 months all to tell her finally and to find out I friend-zoned myself.
So I've only been in one relationship prior to this one that just happened. But the thing is that I don't feel as strongly towards her as she does to me. I don't know if it's because of everything that has happened to me relating to wanting a relationship or because I'm just not ready to be in one yet (but when do we ever know really?). Nothing is apparent to me right now. I don't know if I like her or not. I know she likes me but I don't want to get together again, only to have to go through all this all over again because I wasn't sure about how I felt or how strongly I felt towards her or whatever.
She's a really great girl..really really great person. It's just that I don't feel it like I did for other girls. All I ever wanted was a girlfriend for the longest time, but after trying so many times and getting nowhere, I just gave up looking for that and hoped to go out with a few girls or none and just wait until I was ready to look for a nice and stable relationship again. I just don't know where I'm at right now and I want to do the right thing and not hurt her anymore. All I want is for her to be happy, whether that be with me (if i realize i really do like her) or someone else (if i dont)