OK let me start this off somehow. Maybe you remember that one girl I really really liked for over a year and thought maybe she liked me. Well now it is apparent that she doesn't. Didn't even need to try and ask her out to find this one out.
So I told her about my graduation party about two weeks ago. This was after she seeked me out and gave me her graduation party info, btw. Then, a couple days before my party, I gave her the info again and she assured me she was coming, but she had to work until 7. Then last night at the ceremony I asked her again to make sure and she said she would. Now today comes around, my graduation party, and I keep a steady 8 drinks worth of liquor in me up until 9 for when she shows up to make sure I am more sociable. So from around 7 - 9 I am at my party kind of anxious for her to show up. And she doesn't. When I go online after everyone else left (around 9 30) I check the away message of one of her best friends and it reads something like "Waiting for (insert girls name here), going to (some popular guy) grad party, party!, blah blah blah, etc.......". Wow that hurt really ****ing bad. I would rather be stabbed in the foot, 100 times over. She also didn't respond to the voicemail I left for her 1 or 2 days ago... It should have been completely ****ing obvious that she was leagues above me from last night simply by judging from the applause she got as she crossed the stage compared to mine.
Idk.. She did invite me to her graduation party but I will not be able to attend due to being in Niagara that day (precisely one week from today). Should I call and tell her I cannot attend? Or just not call at all and try to forget? Should I call her sometime in the next week and ask why she did not show up? I have no clue... I thought she was sending me signals that maybe she liked me. Does this make it clear that she does not???? I was gonna ask her to come over to my place sometime the next week today, but can't really do that anymore... i think
Ughhh this hurts ****ing BAD. Wish I could say it didn't... If you guys don't think I have a chance with this chick, I will try and get over it, but it sure as **** won't be easy at all... Is it possible she is just playing "hard to get"???? I have a friend who said he would try and hook me up this summer, once I get over this I'll tell him or something. I know this is just 1 girl that turned me down and that I have plenty more opportunities to be turned down or accepted, but it still hurts.
I take a great amount of comfort in the quote "In this country, you gotta make the money first. Then when you get the money, you get the power. Then when you get the power, then you get the woman."