I've been with friends with this girl for ages... and she told me she liked me still like 2-3 months ago. It was my fault for waiting too long to ask her out but at the same time I'm glad I didn't because she fell for another guy in our college...
Thing is they've been together for like a month and a half now?
And literally last week sunday and on new years... she told me she "loved me" and she feels lost without me. I told her we should stop speaking because you can't say you love me when your with someone else! But I had a feeling she didn't wanna let go.
Anyway, 4-5 days ago... I told her its over, everything's finished as I couldn't handle it anymore, told her to delete me etc block me as I did the same so I haven't been in touch with her for like a week or whatever.
I still like her... and I know she probably hates me because I've stopped talking to her but it was for my own good and safety that I stop getting hurt. Today was the first day of college and I saw her... obviously she would ignore me etc and look away. Her face had hatred all over me and I think she could see the same with me.
... I always see her with her new guy and they tend to always get on the same bus as me and its so awkward... I feel like... I want her badly when I see her with him :/
I just wish I knew how she still felt even though we aren't talking, if she hates me immensely or still has feelings.... I dont know... I need help :/