I have been dating my guy for 10 months. We live together and things have been really great between us besides a few sorta serious issues. I look at him and just love him, we laugh and play very well together, we have similar goals and interests and are generally very tender with eachother. I have felt that he is the love of my life. However I am wondering if he is slightly off in the head. I mean abusive. Last night we both drank a little bit, I drank a whole lot more than he did, he had one drink to my four.
We were discussing parenting and coming to conclusions on how to get his daughter to eat better. The conversation was going well (we have had really heated conversations before, usually involving alcohol but not always, we both have very strong and often opposing opinions about serious topics) but it took a turn for the worst when we started talking about war. I have the opinion that it isnt really a good thing to focus on, it doesnt seem to do anybody any good to focus on something so negative, although it can be turned into a positive.
To make a long story short, 9-11 came up and I said I felt it was an inside job, a conspiracy if you will, I have known that opinion to really offend people and I do know that it is unpatriotic but Its how I feel. At that moment he said "What? Get the F$@# out of my house"...."You are a f&$%#^% idiot". (when an hour before he said he was totally in love with me) I said I would leave but was shocked. I told him numerous times I really would leave and he better talk to me about this and he simply said he did not care if I left and to get out. I called my mother freaking out and she said she would come help me move the next day. I slept in our guest bedroom until I woke up about 4am when I came into our room to see how he was. He then said, "hey baby, I love you and I am really sorry, alot of last night was me and I was an a-hole but I just got really offended".
I love him tremendously but this is one of the worst things a partner has ever said to me. It makes me feel like I can be tossed around and treated like an idiot for having a controversial opinion. This is the second time he has gotten furious over a conversation. Just seems like maybe I should leave. What if this is a warning sign? Am I making too much of it? I know alcohol doesnt help but I dont feel like its an excuse bc he really wasnt even drunk and even if he was I am feeling this is a major problem and I dont know how to deal with it. Am I wrong?
Thanks for reading and responding!