I've been with my BF for nearly two years and we live 2 hours away from each other. We are both quite young (early to mid 20's) and there are no plans for us to move closer in the near future. Due to work we only get to see each other once or twice a month. When we do see each other things are great both in and out the bed room. We usually talk on the phone each day to check in with each other and I love him very much.
I do miss having him with me both physically and emotionally. At the beginning of the relationship we used technology to keep the heat going (photos, Skype, texts etc) however this has gradually decrease over the past 6months. Whenever I attempt to instigate anything I either get a change in conversation or a joke in response. When I then express my frustration he tends to turn it around so I feel stupid for bringing it up. It's hard not to feel rejected and it's a bit bitter sweet when he instigates anything as I then feel weak for always giving him what he wants without a second thought.
Do I have unrealistic expectations? I just want some form of intimacy and to keep the fire burning so to speak. It's really getting me down and effecting my confidence.
Sorry for the essay and thankyou for reading x