I've known this girl for ages, I met her in October 2010 because she was going out with someone close to me. In January 2011, I realised I had feelings for her... And she had feelings for me. In the beginning it was very innocent, we both promised nothing would ever come of it, that we would wait for these feelings to go away. But we spoke everyday and I began to fall more and more in love with her despite her being with someone. Things got physical between us (not sexual) and she told me so much stuff like "I love you" and "In a perfect world I'd be with you".. I loved her so much. I'd have done anything for her. She's so perfect. I wish I could have had more time with her, but her being in a relationship, it wasn't possible... I know what I did was wrong, but it was love. Seeing them two together broke my heart, and a few times I heard them having sex... That KILLED. But... I loved her. I didn't know what I was expecting from her, but she said she loved 2 people.
And so up til Wednesday the 16th, we talked everyday. Then that evening, the person she was in a relationship with found out about me. I called up the love of my life and we talked about what we had to do. She decided that we shouldn't talk anymore, at all. I should delete her everywhere, and move on. She said she'd talk to me on June 27th. So she can "fix" things with this other person. It's been 2 days and I can't stop thinking about her... I'm so in love with her, without her I just don't see the point in living anymore. She's going to be happy with this other person, and I'm going to be left. I guess there's always a loser in every situation... It's like she's died. I'm grieving for her because she's just disappeared from my life.
How do I cope? Everything reminds me of her, I so want to contact her, but that wouldn't solve anything... You can't make someone love you if they don't. I'm not going to stalk her or anything, I'm going to leave her be and hope that she comes back to me. I know it won't happen... I find myself doubting everything she ever said. I love her, so so much. I don't even want to get up in the mornings knowing that I wont be seeing her. I don't know what to do! How do i get past the fact she's the love of my life and is going to be happy with somebody else?