Well short story short, I am a 22 year old guy. I never could picture getting married, having kids, and leading a regular life, it just was not what I wanted. I have never even had a girlfriend, as I would rather ride motorcycles and do my own thing.
As I was walking into work the other day I saw this girl, not necessarily the most attractive, but I couldn't take my eyes off her. I helped a few customers while one of my coworkers helped her, but my mind was spinning, and I couldn't stop looking at her. I started to say something, but my mouth froze in this awful shit eating grin, and I couldn't speak (as an experienced public speaker, a problem I don't have). After this my coworker told me that she kept looking at me like she was expecting something, so I felt really stupid.
Here is where it gets weird.
I tried to just shake it off and forget, but I can't. Her face is stuck in my head, this was Sunday evening, and all I can think about is this girl that I have never even met. I even imagine in depth conversations, and moments I hoped we would share. I have been thinking of marriage, and kids, and all that crap I don't think I want.
I haven't eaten, barely slept, I am a wreck. At work I can barely focus, I keep looking up to see if this girl is there, and of course she never is. I see her everywhere until I get close and realize. Other women, even the ones I would usually be interested in have no appeal to me whatsoever.
So yeah, I am at a loss to what is going on, and want a female opinion. Am I losing it? I have NEVER even talked to her. I have the next four days off, which I have been looking forward to, but now all I can think about is this girl shopping when I am not there.
I have been working on a motorcycle on which to circumnavigate the globe, and now I am thinking that I would rather be home cuddled up with...
i need some help