Hey all. Thanks for taking the time to read.
So, I have been with my girlfriend for a bit shy of two years; this is my first serious relationship, but it's her second, and so a lot of the relationship has been a learning experience for me because I am trying to understand my feelings and how I feel in a relationship, and how I should feel.
The thing is, though, that I feel very negative about the state of things, but I don't really have a good reason why. I just feel very...tired of the relationship. There are a lot of little things that I have been noticing. For one, over the course of the relationship, I have found myself wanting to spend less and less time with her. We don't live together, and I see her maybe three days per week. I have always been someone who needs more alone time than the average person, but at the beginning, I wanted to spend more time with her. These days, including today, I am much more content to be by myself, doing anything, and even when I do spend time with her, I find myself itching to go after a while. I really don't know why this is.
The other major thing that I've noticed is that, whenever we're intimate, I generally don't seem to feel as strongly as she does. Whenever she sighs or says "I love you," I find myself feeling guilty or rolling my eyes or something similar. I also don't look forward to being intimate anymore. Whenever we do, I feel kind of like a doll for my girlfriend to hug to let her stresses out. I know that this is kind of a duty in a relationship, but that's all it ever feels like anymore. A lot of it feels like an obligation.
The problem in all this is that I don't know what to think about it. I don't know if I am being lazy, or if this is just how relationships are after this amount of time has passed, or if we really are on different wavelengths, or what. That's why I wrote this post. Based on what I wrote, what do you guys think? Have any of you ever experienced similar feelings? How did you deal with them?
Thanks so much for any input.