Ending Chapters In Life

[Junket]

Anytime I've come close to, or ended a chapter in my life, I've gotten more emotional about it.

When I left home for AmeriCorps I had a big good-bye with my highschool and work buddies.

When I left the non-profit we worked for during our service, I stood up to say my official goodbye, I out of nowhere, it hit me like a brick I was snotty nosed and teary eyed.

When I left AmeriCorps for home, I bawled like a little baby when I left my team, (and my now g/f).

When I left Philly to Oklahoma to stay with my brother, finally breaking my financial dependence from my father.

When I left my brother in Oklahoma to live in New Orleans...well, I was happy to leave Oklahoma, but sad to leave my brother.

After living here for, well this is the start of the 3rd year, I can't wait to leave this place. I've promised myself, and my g/f, that when my job ends, we're gonna pack up and leave this place.

The job is slowing down, the foremen are encouraging people to take days off because the pace of work is limited. It's beginning to hit me that soon, they're going to hand me my check, shake my hand, and I'll have to live up to the promise I made to myself and my g/f.

I've already begun to sort through the few belongings I have to get rid of anything I don't want, or need, but not with the same urgency I am sure I will once the pay checks stop coming.

This city has worn me out, and I'm ready to head back to what's familiar. But it's been 4 years since I've lived Philly.

I'm not sure anyplace can be familiar after 4 years.

I already know that when I move back, there are things I'm going to miss about this broken city.

I feel like I'm starting all over again. All the roads and places I've learned will be gone. All the connections I've developed through work will be useless.

Just a few weeks ago, actually, they laid off this electrician I had been working with. He was from the same state as I, and we talked a bit. Felt good to connect with someone that had as much disdain for this city as I did. The day they laid him off though, I shook his hand like I would any other person, but I felt that tinge of emotion, like when one of your favorite character makes their final exit in a show or book.

I may never see this person again. If I do, it will be far from here, maybe a long time from now.

[Gigabitch]

You're so sappy, Fras. I love that about you. Is your gf sappy too?

[Junket]

You're so sappy, Fras. I love that about you. Is your gf sappy too?

Ehh, I think she's a bit like me, she's selective about what she'll get emotional about.

I know her feelings are mixed, (as are mine), but she's happy to get out of New Orleans, and for the most part excited about a whole new city. She's visited there twice, so really, it's all new to her.

Honestly, I think most people would get a little emotional when leaving a place they've lived for a while. It's human nature to make connections, and it can be hard to sever them, especially by choice.

[Gigabitch]

I left new Orleans in tatters. I got my heart broken there. I hate that town.

I still think you guys should be moving to Albuquerque. You'd be just another Mexican here.

[Junket]

I left new Orleans in tatters. I got my heart broken there. I hate that town.

I still think you guys should be moving to Albuquerque. You'd be just another Mexican here.

I need to get my career in order, if it weren't for the economy I would easily consider a hundred other places.

I didn't know you had been in New Orleans.

Has a charm doesn't it?

Like an abusive relationship?

[Gribble]

Sometimes I wish I could feel that way about something, anything.

[dewilliams2]

I know its a weird feeling. You can be friends with people you work with for years and then all of a sudden you don't work together anymore and even though you used to hang out after work you just kinda stop...its weird.

[Junket]

You never will though, because you don't have a soul

Sorry Grib, I had a little laugh out loud moment there.

I've caught glimpses of your sentiment.

Everybody has their thing, you know yours, regardless if you share them here or not.

[vashti]

Sometimes I wish I could feel that way about something, anything.

you are sentimental about your sister. Don't try to deny it.

[Doc Durian]

Ehh, I think she's a bit like me, she's selective about what she'll get emotional about.

I know her feelings are mixed, (as are mine), but she's happy to get out of New Orleans, and for the most part excited about a whole new city. She's visited there twice, so really, it's all new to her.

Honestly, I think most people would get a little emotional when leaving a place they've lived for a while. It's human nature to make connections, and it can be hard to sever them, especially by choice.

Familiarity scares me.

I've got at least over a dozen places I'd like to revisit for a spell, but then I'd not find new places.

Same goes with acquaintances... possibly relationships.

My connection is waking up and feeling the need to just keep walking/driving/flying, and it tears me up when I'm obligated otherwise.

[IndiReloaded]

I think that's nice, Fras.

[doppelgaenger]

I don't think I've ever really had a 'settled' feeling inside of me.
All my life I've been moving. Across states, across countries, between parents, to study abroad, for vacation, etc.
I did have a similar feeling though, when I moved to the middle of bum **** nowhere.

Wherever you go, you'll make new connections and new friends.
Some people fear leaving everything and everyone they know. They'll never know the world like you and me.

[Petit Papillon]

You'd be just another Mexican here.

Wait a minute... Fras is MEXICAN??


Why did I always think that he's another Asian on this forum?

[doppelgaenger]

Because he is Asian. His dad is Vietnamese or something.

Every brown guy in NM is a mexicano. Just how it is lol.

[Gigabitch]

I didn't know you had been in New Orleans.

Has a charm doesn't it?

Like an abusive relationship?

Yup. I worked on the MQ for a while. Ate at a lot of nice restaurants. Noted that the entire town smells like a dumpster. That abusive relationship is behind me.