My ex boyfriend and I were together for over a year and a half. We were head over heels for each other but four weeks ago he told me he didn't want a relationship anymore and wanted to do his own thing. We are in college and came to the same school together and live in the same apartment building (but not the same apartment) we had all these plans with one another and how our life would turn out and all the sudden none of it even matters to him. And honestly, I've never been so upset and heart broken. We were everything to one another and we were best friends and he's more than willing to give it up.
Over the last four weeks, I've tried everything. The first week, I begged him to get back together with me and he said "The feelings aren't there anymore. I still love you. I will always love you. I care about you. I want to be with you. But I just want to not have to worry about anything." Within those first two weeks post break up, we ended up cuddling on the couch and kissing. And it felt wonderful and magical like it always has. But he still insisted on that he didn't feel anything. But he kept on saying how it's so hard to be next to me and not cuddle or kiss me or anything like that.
Later on within the third week, he told me that "Obviously his feelings aren't just going to go away right after we break up and that it's been such a habit for the year and a half that that's the reason why we kissed and everything the way we did." But still I continued to ask him if he loved me still and if he wanted to be with me and he would say yes.
At the beginning of the fourth week, I began to feel angry and upset. I can't understand why he's doing this. So I went to his apartment and told him so. I told him how I wished we never were together and that everything would be a lot easier now and that I wish he at least cared about me enough to see if I was okay (but he didn't the whole time, it was always me going to see if he was okay.) and all he could say was "I'm sorry. I will always love you. I just want you to know that."
To be honest, I don't know what to do anymore. I want to wait for him, but it feels hopeless. I feel like I'll be waiting forever and I shouldn't do that to myself. I want to be with him, I want everything that we had back. We were best friends and perfect with each other for so long and he just gave up on that. He told me he started thinking about breaking up a week before he actually did it and things were rough for one month and he just gave up. I know I should get over him and let it go. He said he doesn't want a relationship again for a very long time and I ask him if it was me and he says "No. You're perfect." but continues to say that he doesn't think he wants to be in a relationship for a year or so. It's just all so confusing and I miss him dearly. Any advice? Do I wait or get over him?
How do I deal with seeing him sometimes? He rides the bus I take to school occasionally (I think just to check up on me) and it hurts. All i want is to be with him.