Hello I did a few things to a girl who for a long time I loved and was my soul mate. I am not proud of what I did but I can't change the past but right now I need redemption. Its eating away at me it’s the first thing I think about when I get up and the last thing on my mind before I go to sleep. I need to get this out of my system because I can’t live like this anymore and the more I try to suppress this feeling the stronger it becomes. How can I redeem myself or at least suppress it so it does'nt bother me.