I want to apologize for something that happened with a guy I was dating for about 6 months. He and I decided not to see each other but in the process I hurt his feelings. I was lashing out because I was feeling hurt.
I had told him I was glad to go our separate ways because I was tired of sharing him with other women. (Honestly, I don't know if he was seeing other girls or not but he often talked about seeing girls. We hadn't agreed to be exclusive)
After a couple hours of cooling off, I called him to apologize. He had turned off his phone. I tried texting and emailing the next day but he never responded.
It's been 6 weeks and I haven't tried to contact him.
I've been agonizing over this situation and while I know neither of us want to have an intimate relationship, we were good friends (even before we dated) and I feel like I may have hurt him more than I realized.
I want so badly to ask for his forgiveness or at the very least admit I was an asshole.
But, is it worth it since he hasn't responded to me? I always thought that if someone doesn't return your calls then they want you to leave them alone. I want to respect that but I also can't get over how abrupt everything ended.
I want him to know I did care about him. I keep thinking he got mad because I didn't realize how important I was to him. Or was I? I have no idea!
I just want this to be over and I'm not sure I can move on unless I get this closure.
I think I just need some insight.