Me questioning on an american forum might seem a little odd
considering that I live in Sweden. But my problem is an american girl.
It's like this, I'm a 20 year old guy who has just finished High school(we finish at 18-19 years of age), and a 1-year militairy service here in Sweden. About four weeks ago, I met this girl in a club here in Stockholm during three days off. We danced and I found out she was from Trenton(smaller town outside new york.
She's 18 and she's fantastic in all ways. Beautiful, smart and she even speaks a little swedish after only a few months here(Swedish is a very hard language for an american). But she's also so innocent(which is a part of why I really like her). I know she's not a virgin, but I seriously doubt she's had more than one or two boyfriends in her whole life because she's also insecure in many ways.
So anyway, we go off the subway. (She lives in the Stockholm suburbs with relatives). And suddenly she kisses me good night, but I insist that I should walk her to the door. She says no and says that I should go home. So I explain to her that Stockholm isn't exactly a safe place. But she laughs at tells me that it can't be any worse than the USA. So I say "ok, fine" or something like it. A little hurt, but I'm a little worried for her so I follow her home. If someone saw me, they would call it stalking. Which was not my intention(really), I was seriously worried about her.
I might be a little overprotective sometimes and I can understand taht doesn't match with an independant girl that has crossed 1/4 of the globe to get away a while. But I can't help myself, I kept imagining some weirdo russian or turk gang that jumps out of the bushes on her. So I followed her from a distance and she didn't see me...the first time.
I saw her again a couple of weeks later and this saturday we met again. I can tell she likes me. Anyway, we had a longer kiss and it was great. She seemed to like it to (heh).
And the same thing happened at the end, she kissed me good night and I pretended to leave just to follow her. That's when it happened, she walked through a smaller forest and some sirens or something came in the background and she turned around just to see me. Now, instead of going up and explaining to her. I started running like a fleeing gazell or something. I don't know why I did it, I just paniced.
So now, I'm afraid that she thinks I'm some sort of perverted weirdo and I am really really embarrassed by the whole incident if I can call it that. And I am almost positive she recognized me. So yesterday(monday), I tried to call her but her cousin told me she was out. And now I don't have the guts to call her again, I just don't know what to say.
Seriously, help me! I think I'm in love with her but I am clueless and terrifyed of what to do next because of this. (We haven't sleeped together or anything, even though I wouldn't mind. )