Hi everyone need a little motivation and advice,
I have been going through alot lately love wise my gf of 5 years left me 1 1/2 year ago then i ifind out she cheated on me i move to another country meet a new girl and fall for her turns out she doesnt fall for me go at it for a couple of month and it dosent work out so ive been alone for a while no pets no gf just alot of random hook ups alot whom become obsesed wont stop texting me and im just not in to any of them and i have felt so lost and like love dosent exist and then!!! i just spend a weekend thi sbeuatiful amazing girl in a hostel and we ended up having the most amazing day wine tour bycicle riding we got lost ate but she told me she had a boyfriend that they were gonna move back to her home together and shes helping him outto get there cause his a struggling artist so know she has to pay her parents back working for what they lend her to get hi a visa. I respected and treated her as a friend but the way she looked at me was different we were both falling head over heels for each other and the situation was hard i decided to take it easy and the next day she ends up sleeping with me cause she didnt want sleep alone with made love and i took her to get her bus she was leaving we both new we had found something terrfyingli magical between us it is amazing feeling and she told me she didnt knwo what to do she had done all this stuff had all this plans were her boyfriend but was crushed inside cause of what little we had. Shes gonna come stay with me for a couple of days in two weeks when she finishes her solo travelling trip she was on. I know in reality im in love and it just happend and i know i cant haver her and my heart is in pieces she sends me pictures tells me her heart is tortured love is only this strong when its mutual and i understand you dont canell youre life for someone you just met but iam in so much pain to have found whom im pretty sure is the love of my life and shes going to go away im so down she saids she doent want to chat cause is toruturing her and she cant stop thinking about us im destroyed my heart is so sad this never happends very rarely do you feel this magical connection how do i keep on going? what do i do ?