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[Youth Suicide]

First and foremost, the one that has lead to some problems. I dated this girl ashley for a year and a half technically. But we could have been considered together for a better part of 3 years. Well we were engaged... An ex girlfriend of mine informed me she had been pregnant with my baby and miscarried.. Well I was a little freaked out and kinda broke up with ashley not thinking. Well then this guy comes along and puts all these rumors in my head and freaks me out. So he has space to get her while she's vulnerable. Well after I realized what he was doing and i finally kinda came out of my depression, and felt horrible. Because I love ashley. Now i've gone a year without her and I crash into depressions quite often because i can't stand not being with her. And every guy she dates now just uses her for sex... I love ashley with all my heart and i've been trying to get her back. But I think she may be scared of dating me again because of the whole thing with my ex girlfriend.

Everyone says I should move on and stop being a girl about it, blah blah blah. But I mean, nobody understands me like ashley did. I mean I just can't stand not being with her.

i'd appreciate any advice on what i could do. Cause i have told her how i feel. I just hope i get her back.... thanks for any advice you guys can give

[shh!]

I don't get it. You were "with" Ashley when some former girlfriend said she was pregnant with your kid? Were you cheating on Ashley?

[King Zarathu]

You need to grow up buddy. Until you can be more responsible, don't go anywhere need children, shh!, or myself.

[EDIT]
Remembering that you are emotional and sensitive, allow me to clarify...

You broke up with Ashley. Don't go crying for her back. Even though you feel horrible, you're still at fault. Remember, you broke up with Ashley after hearing she was pregnant. That says a lot.

[Youth Suicide]

i've been close friends with ashley for close to three years. Officially we were dating for a year and a half.



and zarathu.... ASHLEY wasn't the one who was pregnant. It was an ex-girlfriend. Totally different girl who didn't tell me she was pregnant until a long time later.






but im also bipolar so something as devestating as being told what i was told would of course make me crash into a depression.

[King Zarathu]

Do you think that somehow you could manage to establish a control over your emotions? Are you getting any therapy at all regarding that?

Also, sorry about the misunderstanding. I thought Ashley was pregnant, you dumped her, and then you felt bad about it. My fault.

[Youth Suicide]

I am in a weekly therapy session. The doctors always try to prescribe me medicine but I don't trust them because 2 years ago they said it was clinical depression and gave me strong anti-depressants which made me suicidal... So i refuse medicine.
But one of the things that made me so depressed about my ex's baby (kirsten is the ex), is that i felt like the miscarriage was my fault. But that's also what made me feel bad is because apparently kirsten was pregnant when i broke up with her and i didn't know. I really hate when people do that so i felt bad about that as well...

it's okay for the misunderstanding... i typed alot and don't think i made sense myself